Decisions

We are getting so close to getting a referral for children. Just this week we had the option to choose a child from Uganda. I realized when my social worker emailed me, that we have some big decisions to make. God has given us both a strong desire for siblings, so we decided to stick with our conviction. But it was hard and I know as we get closer it will get harder.

So, if you have committed to pray for our Journey, I ask that you pray for discernment for us as we get closer to getting our babies. I believe God has specific siblings set out for us already. Just pray for us that we make the decisions God would have and that I don't get caught up in the emotions of wanting to save every child that comes through my email.

We went to Jacksonville yesterday to the Homeland Security office to get our fingerprints done for immigration. It was a big step for us. I am making myself finish all the Dossier paperwork within the next couple of weeks so we can submit it to Uganda. Then the paperwork is DONE. I might just throw a party that day.

Thanks for the prayers.

Impatience

Today is one of those days I feel like my heart is going to burst if I go one more day without my babies. I walked into the house tonight after church and wished I were walking in with a car seat in one hand and a tiny hand in the other. I went to the bathroom and thought of getting their baths and getting them ready for bed. I know to some it may seem so foreign and you might wonder how I can be so attached to children I don't even know are mine, I can't explain it. I just know they are mine, waiting in Uganda to be united with us. It could still be 6 months to a year before I bring them home, somedays like today that seems like forever and other days I know that God is working in my heart and in my childrens hearts during this time to prepare us. This is such an unnatural process and God has really convicted me to take advantage of this time and pray and fast for my children.

Today at church Jeff read a scripture where it said something about Jesus Christ being from the line of David and I thought about how God introduced adoption with Jesus. Joseph was from David's line and he adopted Jesus as his son but we see all throughout scripture that he is from the Line of David, Just like our little African babies will be from the Audirsch line.

We covet your prayers, I am not naive, I know this will be hard and some days I'm scared but I know God is going to give us the strength to love these children through whatever they have been through.